Hello Emmanuel folks! Mimi here, with one of your weekly intern blog posts (don’t lie, you know it’s one of your favorite parts of the week).

While I was pondering what I should write, I was at a loss. I’m working on normal church business– nothing special there. The website always needs some tweaking, there is always something that needs to be planned for future services… the list goes on and on. But then I stumbled upon a thought, what if I talked about something that is a little more personal? I tend to be private when it comes to certain aspects of my life, and faith is one of these aspects.

Why is that? Well, to be frank, it is because I am far from a perfect Christian. Sometimes I don’t understand lessons that are taught during sermons, I haven’t read the entire Bible, and sometimes I have doubts about my faith. Maybe it’s because of this that I often seek the words of other Christians. Hearing from others who so deeply believe, it inspires me to keep growing in my faith. And so, in the spirit of that, I’ll share with you guys something that I read the other day that really touched my heart.

I stumbled upon a blog that is being kept by an average college girl. In a lot of ways, she seems to be like me. Maybe that’s why I found this quote to be so encouraging. She wrote in one entry,

I’m trying to be a better christian. I’m trying to believe again, I’m trying to rebuild my faith again. I’m trying to find God in the little things in life. I’m trying to build a personal relationship with him again. Maybe try church again. Maybe be happy. Maybe have peace of mind.

And just hearing that… made me feel something. It made me wonder, why don’t more people talk about this? Does our society condition us to believe that we must be the perfect Christian all the time, or else we’re a failure? This girl has doubts, the same doubts that I’ve had from time to time. How many other people feel those same doubts, and feel incredibly alone because of it?

So there it is, I guess that’s my blog message for the day. Everyone, even the people who seem completely content in themselves in their faith, everyone has doubts sometimes. So I would encourage everyone reading this to be honest with their doubts when they occur. Emmanuel is an incredibly loving and supportive community (heck, I wouldn’t be able to write this out if I didn’t feel safe doing it), so don’t be afraid to lean on them for support.
I know I’ll definitely be leaning on you all, so let’s all work hard together 🙂

– Mimi

IT Intern